...is what this blog has been. It has been awhile since anyone has updated this blog and I am sure we all have a thing or two to say don't we?
I'll go first. Everyone don't be surprised cause I saw it coming and some of you may have already known. I've failed my April exam and yes, it was hard! Exactly what I've said earlier. I'll have to resit it next April..woohoo!!!
Guess what I've been up to? I've been studying for another set of exams which is just around the corner!! Double woohoo!! I am so sad right?
Over the past few months I've been feeling very old. My body aches very much due to the stressful lifestyle and I am thinking of acupuncture. Does it hurt? Shall I go for a professional massage? I've got someone to massage me but it doesn't help that much =(
Oh yeah, has anything good happened to anyone? Share! Share! Share!
P.s. Congrats to adr-yan for getting a job! How's it going?
MY
Wednesday, 9 September 2009
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Happy Birthday!!
This is my first time being away for my dad's birthday and it sucks that this year is different. I was lucky to be home every summer during my time in university but I guess time has changed now that I am working.
Dee, I wish you good health, happiness and an abundance of wealth. Love you!!!
P.S. Congrats to adr-yan for getting a job so quickly!! All the best!! ;)
MY
Dee, I wish you good health, happiness and an abundance of wealth. Love you!!!
P.S. Congrats to adr-yan for getting a job so quickly!! All the best!! ;)
MY
Sunday, 12 July 2009
Fire! Fire! Fire!
Last night I came back home around 11.30pm and had shower before watching a replay of Michael Jackson's memorial.
In between the show I went to the toilet. I smelled a faint smell of smoke but at that time I thought it was the strong smell from the Dettol shower gel I was using and thus went back to my room to proceed with MJ's memorial service.
Fell asleep and got up to went to the loo again at 2am. This time there was definitely a stronger smoke smell but thought my nose was playing tricks on me. Woke flatmate up to reconfirm the smell and checked that our flat wasnt on fire. True enough it wasnt.
Then, we looked out at living room and saw the block adjacent to ours burning in flames. Trying to stay calm, we quickly put on warmer clothes and treasure hunt for our passports and wallets.
After we got out of our flat, rain was pouring hard on us and the main road has been blocked by a countless number of ambulances, police cars, fire trucks and a whole lot of other emergency services supporters.
We asked a bystander what was going on and he said that a pub by the corner caught fire two hours ago. Two hours?! I happily took a shower, watched MJ's memorial service and even went to sleep while the pub was burning away. We stood a few feet away and watched and that was all we could do.
I was watching the scene. More fire trucks arriving, ambulances whisking people onto it and speeding away, firemen putting on their full gears, people in bathrobes and slippers, people being rescued from their windows.
Then it just hit me that the pub was right opposite Shell. Yes, a petrol station. And then I started to panic and watched the scene in horror. A few minutes of standing dumb-struck, the police told us to back away but we had no where to go. It was raining hard and we needed to pee (cant help it as nature calls whenever it wants to =S).
Oddly enough, our block was not evacuated and we could still go back to our flats and we decided to take a quick toilet trip. Back in the flat, we could hear loud hammering, people shouting and torch lights shining randomly behind our courtyard.
We had a good view of the fire and we could see that it was just one side of the flat that was burning. It would take a strong wind, a huge fire and a long time (enough notice for us to make a cuppa tea before getting to safety) for the fire to come our at our direction.
We saw the whole process of the firemen getting to the rear of the building by breaking walls and windows to try and put out the fire from the back of the building. Then the fire got worse. The pub was on the ground floor but flats above were catching fire. Things seem to have gotten worst and we could see thick black clouds of smoke.
I watched the behind the scenes from my living room and was praying that the fire would quickly be put off and that no one got hurt. At around 4am, the fire had been successfully put off (from my view anyway) and sleep was calling for me.
I went to sleep and got up every hour to check that the fire was still out. Only smoke was coming out from the building and the firemen were still around. Around 10am I was woken up by loud sirens again. Looked out of my room window and saw an ambulance leave. There were still a number of fire trucks, police cars, etc hanging around. Looked like they never left and never stopped what they were doing.
After lunch, we decided to go take a look outside. There were still police on duty and they were not letting anyone get near the scene. Did they stand there the whole night and day? The entire main road was still blocked. This place was never this quiet. Lidl, the supermarket next to Shell is closed until further notice as the entire car park has been taken over by every rescue force. I saw two news truck with their big satellite dish.
As I am typing this at 5 ish in the evening, there are lesser fire trucks, police cars, ambulances, etc around but the firemen are still investigating the source of the fire. I can still see them at work.
You can see some pictures here:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/scotland/8146504.stm
and the news here:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/scotland/8146354.stm
Got to go rest as it has been a long day. Sorry for the chaotic blog entry.
Signing off,
MY
In between the show I went to the toilet. I smelled a faint smell of smoke but at that time I thought it was the strong smell from the Dettol shower gel I was using and thus went back to my room to proceed with MJ's memorial service.
Fell asleep and got up to went to the loo again at 2am. This time there was definitely a stronger smoke smell but thought my nose was playing tricks on me. Woke flatmate up to reconfirm the smell and checked that our flat wasnt on fire. True enough it wasnt.
Then, we looked out at living room and saw the block adjacent to ours burning in flames. Trying to stay calm, we quickly put on warmer clothes and treasure hunt for our passports and wallets.
After we got out of our flat, rain was pouring hard on us and the main road has been blocked by a countless number of ambulances, police cars, fire trucks and a whole lot of other emergency services supporters.
We asked a bystander what was going on and he said that a pub by the corner caught fire two hours ago. Two hours?! I happily took a shower, watched MJ's memorial service and even went to sleep while the pub was burning away. We stood a few feet away and watched and that was all we could do.
I was watching the scene. More fire trucks arriving, ambulances whisking people onto it and speeding away, firemen putting on their full gears, people in bathrobes and slippers, people being rescued from their windows.
Then it just hit me that the pub was right opposite Shell. Yes, a petrol station. And then I started to panic and watched the scene in horror. A few minutes of standing dumb-struck, the police told us to back away but we had no where to go. It was raining hard and we needed to pee (cant help it as nature calls whenever it wants to =S).
Oddly enough, our block was not evacuated and we could still go back to our flats and we decided to take a quick toilet trip. Back in the flat, we could hear loud hammering, people shouting and torch lights shining randomly behind our courtyard.
We had a good view of the fire and we could see that it was just one side of the flat that was burning. It would take a strong wind, a huge fire and a long time (enough notice for us to make a cuppa tea before getting to safety) for the fire to come our at our direction.
We saw the whole process of the firemen getting to the rear of the building by breaking walls and windows to try and put out the fire from the back of the building. Then the fire got worse. The pub was on the ground floor but flats above were catching fire. Things seem to have gotten worst and we could see thick black clouds of smoke.
I watched the behind the scenes from my living room and was praying that the fire would quickly be put off and that no one got hurt. At around 4am, the fire had been successfully put off (from my view anyway) and sleep was calling for me.
I went to sleep and got up every hour to check that the fire was still out. Only smoke was coming out from the building and the firemen were still around. Around 10am I was woken up by loud sirens again. Looked out of my room window and saw an ambulance leave. There were still a number of fire trucks, police cars, etc hanging around. Looked like they never left and never stopped what they were doing.
After lunch, we decided to go take a look outside. There were still police on duty and they were not letting anyone get near the scene. Did they stand there the whole night and day? The entire main road was still blocked. This place was never this quiet. Lidl, the supermarket next to Shell is closed until further notice as the entire car park has been taken over by every rescue force. I saw two news truck with their big satellite dish.
As I am typing this at 5 ish in the evening, there are lesser fire trucks, police cars, ambulances, etc around but the firemen are still investigating the source of the fire. I can still see them at work.
You can see some pictures here:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/scotland/8146504.stm
and the news here:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/scotland/8146354.stm
Got to go rest as it has been a long day. Sorry for the chaotic blog entry.
Signing off,
MY
Saturday, 20 June 2009
Keeping it Sane
I've written this article quite some time ago. But perhaps it is good to share for those who are (or who are going to get)involved in the cruel business/office world out there. Most people start small, probably picking up a job role that isn't that satisfying or that up to your expectations in the beginning. And you probably end up wondering if your dreams are being destroyed or ruined. But I guess it is part of the whole process. No doubt some people may start big and shine in an early stage, however, I guess it is quite common to start working as someone's bitch or servant as a starter.
So here goes my article, it is written from my own perspective and it was what I felt at that period and at that time:
Stress causes me to over react. But what really causes my stress and how should I react to it to make situations less stressful?
It's my boss. Everything about him disgusts me (well maybe not everything, but most of the time, he reminds me of evil and negativity). He is a selfish person, a blamer, a liar and he takes pleasure bullying the weak. The negative remarks, the finger pointing, mocking and habit of pressing other people's buttons might be the cause of the mixture of negative feelings in him. And perhaps these cruel actions build up and grow in him as guilt and stress vibes which results to heavier and more aggressive release of negative expressions and actions from him. Thus this chain reaction of negativity goes round and round endlessly.
He gives me alot of pain in the little evil acts that he does, even when some of them might not involve me. Perhaps it is because of the fact that he is my boss which makes me somewhat influenced by his thoughts and actions. Perhaps it is due to the fact that he's my boss that I indirectly feel that I am being controlled, manipulated, mistreated and bullied by a BAD person. And as a result, I also indirectly feel financially pressured.
With his presence around, it is hard to avoid the stressful and negative vibes that he releases whether through mental or verbal torture - whether directly or indirectly, whether in sarcasm or in a straight forward manner. I loathe people who takes pride and pleasure bullying the weak and sometimes I secretly hope that he perishes in hell anytime soon but, who am I to judge? Perhaps such thoughts make me no better than him.
When he is around, I get very pressured. Maybe it is due to jealousy that he prefers other staffs. Or maybe I'm not satisfied with my pay and the treatment that I receive from him. And after so much of stress and efforts put in my works, he does not seem to treat me any better or show any appreciation in terms of payment or promotion. Maybe it is due to these causes that I start to feel that I do not belong, and that I deserve a better place. And during these moments, I constantly feel the vibes of hopes rising then being destroyed with every expectation transforming into disappointment. And these mixtures of rise and fall build up even more pressure in me, which urges me to strive harder to perform better. And with all these complications happening in thoughts and indecisive planning that often occurs, I end up becoming impulsive at times and may over react easily by becoming a public drama queen. So perhaps, perhaps I should not put too much pressure on myself, perhaps I should not push myself so heavily. But the thing is I never like to fall back in my environment, whether in my studies or work. I always desire to be successful and ahead of others. Thus as a habit, I like to push myself to reach out further and try to improve my performance to get noticed, to earn credit, to shine and to stand out from the rest. But the process is very stressful and it is not easy to achieve such goals. One must go through lots of hardship to get there, even if it might mean regular emotional torture. So how can I stop myself from reaching out for my dreams and desires? How do I control myself from my hunger for power and recognition? I refuse to give up. So what can I do to prevent myself from these mental and emotional torture and yet fulfill my dreams?
Maybe I should rely on destiny. Maybe I should simply be satisfied with my current state and be comfortable taking things slow. Maybe I should stop rushing myself and instead allow myself to eat up more time taking baby steps instead of rushing myself to fly and soar. When my time comes, it will come. And even if it does not, then, perhaps I should start moving my focus to other aspects of my life.
Perhaps for now, I should let myself ride the tides and just let loose - let destiny decide where the tide heads. Perhaps I should let God decide what's best for me.
Career is just one side of life and business can be very inhumane. Maybe I should start seeking peace from my heart, mind and soul by allowing myself to indulge in relaxation, spending more time with my family, allowing myself to enjoy entertainment and start to pursue a healthy lifestyle (instead of letting my career eat my soul up). I hope that this article is a reminder for myself (or even others) that it is UNWORTHY to let our careers destroy my love towards what I truly enjoy and treasure in life - including the important people that I truly care about. Take a balance. Control your life by protecting your soul, and don't let society control you.
Love,
zyan.
So here goes my article, it is written from my own perspective and it was what I felt at that period and at that time:
Stress causes me to over react. But what really causes my stress and how should I react to it to make situations less stressful?
It's my boss. Everything about him disgusts me (well maybe not everything, but most of the time, he reminds me of evil and negativity). He is a selfish person, a blamer, a liar and he takes pleasure bullying the weak. The negative remarks, the finger pointing, mocking and habit of pressing other people's buttons might be the cause of the mixture of negative feelings in him. And perhaps these cruel actions build up and grow in him as guilt and stress vibes which results to heavier and more aggressive release of negative expressions and actions from him. Thus this chain reaction of negativity goes round and round endlessly.
He gives me alot of pain in the little evil acts that he does, even when some of them might not involve me. Perhaps it is because of the fact that he is my boss which makes me somewhat influenced by his thoughts and actions. Perhaps it is due to the fact that he's my boss that I indirectly feel that I am being controlled, manipulated, mistreated and bullied by a BAD person. And as a result, I also indirectly feel financially pressured.
With his presence around, it is hard to avoid the stressful and negative vibes that he releases whether through mental or verbal torture - whether directly or indirectly, whether in sarcasm or in a straight forward manner. I loathe people who takes pride and pleasure bullying the weak and sometimes I secretly hope that he perishes in hell anytime soon but, who am I to judge? Perhaps such thoughts make me no better than him.
When he is around, I get very pressured. Maybe it is due to jealousy that he prefers other staffs. Or maybe I'm not satisfied with my pay and the treatment that I receive from him. And after so much of stress and efforts put in my works, he does not seem to treat me any better or show any appreciation in terms of payment or promotion. Maybe it is due to these causes that I start to feel that I do not belong, and that I deserve a better place. And during these moments, I constantly feel the vibes of hopes rising then being destroyed with every expectation transforming into disappointment. And these mixtures of rise and fall build up even more pressure in me, which urges me to strive harder to perform better. And with all these complications happening in thoughts and indecisive planning that often occurs, I end up becoming impulsive at times and may over react easily by becoming a public drama queen. So perhaps, perhaps I should not put too much pressure on myself, perhaps I should not push myself so heavily. But the thing is I never like to fall back in my environment, whether in my studies or work. I always desire to be successful and ahead of others. Thus as a habit, I like to push myself to reach out further and try to improve my performance to get noticed, to earn credit, to shine and to stand out from the rest. But the process is very stressful and it is not easy to achieve such goals. One must go through lots of hardship to get there, even if it might mean regular emotional torture. So how can I stop myself from reaching out for my dreams and desires? How do I control myself from my hunger for power and recognition? I refuse to give up. So what can I do to prevent myself from these mental and emotional torture and yet fulfill my dreams?
Maybe I should rely on destiny. Maybe I should simply be satisfied with my current state and be comfortable taking things slow. Maybe I should stop rushing myself and instead allow myself to eat up more time taking baby steps instead of rushing myself to fly and soar. When my time comes, it will come. And even if it does not, then, perhaps I should start moving my focus to other aspects of my life.
Perhaps for now, I should let myself ride the tides and just let loose - let destiny decide where the tide heads. Perhaps I should let God decide what's best for me.
Career is just one side of life and business can be very inhumane. Maybe I should start seeking peace from my heart, mind and soul by allowing myself to indulge in relaxation, spending more time with my family, allowing myself to enjoy entertainment and start to pursue a healthy lifestyle (instead of letting my career eat my soul up). I hope that this article is a reminder for myself (or even others) that it is UNWORTHY to let our careers destroy my love towards what I truly enjoy and treasure in life - including the important people that I truly care about. Take a balance. Control your life by protecting your soul, and don't let society control you.
Love,
zyan.
Saturday, 13 June 2009
The Next Big Step
How do you know when you are ready? How do you know if it is the right time? How do you know if he or she is the right person? How do you know if are doing the right thing?
No one knows. All we have to do is to decide whether or not to be risk takers. To step out of our comfort zone and face whatever comes because not everything is under our control.
Right now I am taking the next step but deep down I am freaking out. Afraid that things will go ugly and that there is no turning back.
I hate uncertainties. Or more like I do not have the courage to overcome whatever the obstacles are ahead.
No one knows. All we have to do is to decide whether or not to be risk takers. To step out of our comfort zone and face whatever comes because not everything is under our control.
Right now I am taking the next step but deep down I am freaking out. Afraid that things will go ugly and that there is no turning back.
I hate uncertainties. Or more like I do not have the courage to overcome whatever the obstacles are ahead.
Saturday, 6 June 2009
They say people change...
...but you never will.
Excuses given one after another. Truth surfaces after lies. Feelings of anger and hurt are felt right after short pangs of happiness. The button is left on repeat mode.
I want to get out of this vicious cycle. If only I am stronger.
Excuses given one after another. Truth surfaces after lies. Feelings of anger and hurt are felt right after short pangs of happiness. The button is left on repeat mode.
I want to get out of this vicious cycle. If only I am stronger.
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
Work sucks, I know - Blink 182
Workload has always been crazy but recently the burden seems heavier. It is bad when you already have so much to do and cut short your lunch breaks. It is worst when you have your colleague complain to your manager that she has alot of work to do too and that her work gets passed on to you. What makes me furious is that she gets off work on time at 5pm sharp while I stress over work til 7pm.
You may think 7pm is early as compared to working hours in other places. Tis is true but I have other commitments. Like her, I need to study for exams too. Like her, I've got a social life too. Like her, I would like to get out early and enjoy the sun while it lasts.
What makes thing even worst is that she is giving me the cold shoulder. Whatever, it doesnt affect me. She was never nice to me in the first place anyway. On my first day at work she asked me if I wanted to join her for lunch with her friends. I said I dont mind (not like I know anyone). She asked me if I was sure I wanted to join her friends. Turns out, those friends of hers were my uni mates. Funny thing is that she doesn't eat lunch with them anymore. Period. Even if she is alone she rather eat at her desk.
Then I go home to another set of problems. When you think you've had enough the rollercoaster we are riding on gets even wilder. Anyway, we'll leave that for another story to tell.
As of now, I just want to hit on the brakes and take things slowly. If only that is possible.
Signing off,
MY
You may think 7pm is early as compared to working hours in other places. Tis is true but I have other commitments. Like her, I need to study for exams too. Like her, I've got a social life too. Like her, I would like to get out early and enjoy the sun while it lasts.
What makes thing even worst is that she is giving me the cold shoulder. Whatever, it doesnt affect me. She was never nice to me in the first place anyway. On my first day at work she asked me if I wanted to join her for lunch with her friends. I said I dont mind (not like I know anyone). She asked me if I was sure I wanted to join her friends. Turns out, those friends of hers were my uni mates. Funny thing is that she doesn't eat lunch with them anymore. Period. Even if she is alone she rather eat at her desk.
Then I go home to another set of problems. When you think you've had enough the rollercoaster we are riding on gets even wilder. Anyway, we'll leave that for another story to tell.
As of now, I just want to hit on the brakes and take things slowly. If only that is possible.
Signing off,
MY
Wednesday, 27 May 2009
Got Myself a free PSP
Is not bad being a good person in NZ....Got myself a free PSP for doing that....Although the PSP is the first bulky version with scratches all over...It is playable and there is nothing wrong with the screen, buttons or power and the main thing is that it can play ISO means downloadable games....HAHAHA
The story goes like that ''''
Went to Queens garden for a walk and found a PSP on the bench...Wat to do with it ? A friend suggested i report lost property to Police station...Ok...I'll do that...I'm in NZ....Cannot believe me as a Malaysian doing that...lol....
Went to the Police station...Conversation as below...
Police: How can i help you ?
Me: I pick up a PSP...
Police: Where at ?
Me: Queens Garden...
Police: You just pick it up ?
Me: Yea...5 minutes ago
Police: Alrite, please fill in the report loss form with your details..
Me: Ok...
Police: How much does the thing cost ?
Me: Around 270 dollars...
Police: Woah, good on ya...
Me: Laughing...
Police: Would you like to take it if no one claim it...
Me: Havent response to it...
Police: Yes !! Why not right !!!
Me: Lol...Yea
End of conversation.....
After 2 months...A letter from police station....Please claim the following property because it was not been claim...You have 7 days to do so....Wah...Rush to police station straight and claim it...Got myself a free PSP...Hooray....
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
Is getting cold....
Life in Nelson is bored...When i mean bored means it is damn bored...Still dunno when i will be back to KL...Still cant find the right job...Sigh
Anyway i'm still here and not dead...Is getting cold now but i still cannot kick the habit of wearing shorts and sleeping...Typical Malaysian huh...
So how have you guys been ? Seems like everyone is busy with their stuff cuz i hardly see u ppl online...Really that busy or there is something to do with time differences...Hope to catch up with u guys soon....Take care
She is feeling so cold and wear like that while i just have shorts, sandals and hoody... "-___-"
Anyway i'm still here and not dead...Is getting cold now but i still cannot kick the habit of wearing shorts and sleeping...Typical Malaysian huh...
So how have you guys been ? Seems like everyone is busy with their stuff cuz i hardly see u ppl online...Really that busy or there is something to do with time differences...Hope to catch up with u guys soon....Take care
She is feeling so cold and wear like that while i just have shorts, sandals and hoody... "-___-"
Friday, 22 May 2009
Random May Updates
-I am on holidays and will be until the weekend is over.
-Hasty decisions were made whether they were right or not.
-I am flat hunting. I don't want to pay for more than what I am paying. I don't want to travel further than what I am already doing to go to work. I still want Kung Yan's car.
-I will be job hunting.
-I will be missing my team's bbq lunch tomorrow. On purpose.
-I will start my study routine again next week.
-The weather here is a pain. It is either too hot or too cold.
-I want to join the girls for a beach holiday come June but I can't.
-It is supposed to be a public holiday on Monday. I don't know why we still have to go back and work.
Your turn.
-What have all of you been up to?
-How is the restaurant doing?
-How is everyone doing? I hope all of you are well =D
I miss you all.
-Hasty decisions were made whether they were right or not.
-I am flat hunting. I don't want to pay for more than what I am paying. I don't want to travel further than what I am already doing to go to work. I still want Kung Yan's car.
-I will be job hunting.
-I will be missing my team's bbq lunch tomorrow. On purpose.
-I will start my study routine again next week.
-The weather here is a pain. It is either too hot or too cold.
-I want to join the girls for a beach holiday come June but I can't.
-It is supposed to be a public holiday on Monday. I don't know why we still have to go back and work.
Your turn.
-What have all of you been up to?
-How is the restaurant doing?
-How is everyone doing? I hope all of you are well =D
I miss you all.
Monday, 11 May 2009
Crossroads
After that major exam I had, I realised I've lost my passion to become an actuary. I no longer want to spend my evenings after work cooped up in my room studying. With spring here and the long hours of sunshine ahead I really detest the idea of staying indoors studying hard and TRYING to pass exams that have such high failure rates.
This time, most of my colleagues already have an idea of which paper(s) they would want to do in the next seating (coming September). Crazy right? I mean we just finished exams two weeks ago and most of them have already ordered their study materials and I bet you they have already started studying.
I, on the other hand, do not have a bloody clue which papers I would like force myself to study next.
Also, I now have to quickly decide whether to move nearer to work which is away from city or find another place and continue to live in the city and commute to work everyday. Sigh, kung-yan you hardly use your car right? Send it over and lend me lar! I'll make good use of it!
Over the next few days, I am taking a short break away from work and from people and their babbling about the recent disastrous exams or the conquest to pass future exams. Hopefully, by the end of the holidays my head will be clearer and I would still stand firm to this career path I've chosen.
MY
This time, most of my colleagues already have an idea of which paper(s) they would want to do in the next seating (coming September). Crazy right? I mean we just finished exams two weeks ago and most of them have already ordered their study materials and I bet you they have already started studying.
I, on the other hand, do not have a bloody clue which papers I would like force myself to study next.
Also, I now have to quickly decide whether to move nearer to work which is away from city or find another place and continue to live in the city and commute to work everyday. Sigh, kung-yan you hardly use your car right? Send it over and lend me lar! I'll make good use of it!
Over the next few days, I am taking a short break away from work and from people and their babbling about the recent disastrous exams or the conquest to pass future exams. Hopefully, by the end of the holidays my head will be clearer and I would still stand firm to this career path I've chosen.
MY
Tuesday, 5 May 2009
For You
Dear Friend,
I hope you get through this. No matter what you did I am still by your side. Good or bad. I am always here. We are always here. For you.
So I pray that you survive this like how you had survived everything else. What have you not gone through right?
So stay calm and face the music. Whatever happens remember we are always here.
I hope you get through this. No matter what you did I am still by your side. Good or bad. I am always here. We are always here. For you.
So I pray that you survive this like how you had survived everything else. What have you not gone through right?
So stay calm and face the music. Whatever happens remember we are always here.
Monday, 27 April 2009
It Is Over....
....for now.
I finished exams exactly a week ago and it took me so long to recover from the trauma. After 6 months of worrying about this exam and feeling guilty whenever I was doing everything but studying, you'd think it was worth it.
The paper was fucking hard. It was called Actuarial Risk Management (CA1) split into two papers and 3 hours long each. I spent the last half of Paper 1 thinking about changing my profession. Thinking about changing my career path. Thinking about everything other than this. Who the hell still wants to study after a long day of work? It was me who bet my whole future on the promise of a bright future. I wanted this so badly then but now I don't know.
This job is so overrated. The pay is so overrated. The job security is so underrated (in light of the recent financial crisis). I am just feeling frustrated.
It was a bad exam and I resent having to resit the paper again.
I will be okay. I just need to blurt it all out (trust me there is more). Thanks for listening all.
MY
I finished exams exactly a week ago and it took me so long to recover from the trauma. After 6 months of worrying about this exam and feeling guilty whenever I was doing everything but studying, you'd think it was worth it.
The paper was fucking hard. It was called Actuarial Risk Management (CA1) split into two papers and 3 hours long each. I spent the last half of Paper 1 thinking about changing my profession. Thinking about changing my career path. Thinking about everything other than this. Who the hell still wants to study after a long day of work? It was me who bet my whole future on the promise of a bright future. I wanted this so badly then but now I don't know.
This job is so overrated. The pay is so overrated. The job security is so underrated (in light of the recent financial crisis). I am just feeling frustrated.
It was a bad exam and I resent having to resit the paper again.
I will be okay. I just need to blurt it all out (trust me there is more). Thanks for listening all.
MY
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
BZZZZZZyan
I know. I've been busy...
Ask Ads - he'll know.
I can work until as late as 9.30pm then end up watching movies and.... bed...
I've been designing Sweet Deli'ght's Menu..
Hehe just doing a mock but barely have time for that too - but don't worry, tho' the progress's a lil' SLLLOW... it's progressing!
And OMGGG HY ... your blog entry is so sweet lahhh...
HAHA And nice hair!
Wonder when am I gonna see Mr.Botak's gf.
Random updates:
1. Been havin' a great appetite only on food that I really really like.
2. Can't really get into a good sleep at night - I either have some kinda weird dream and wake up feeling tired or I can't really sleep at all
3. Been feeling really restless - and somewhat anxious for no reason
See, like right now it's 1.15am and I'm supposed to be asleep...
And I can't sleeeeep...
But I feel too tired to concentrate on the menu...
But yet I can't get INTO a 'sleep'..
maybe I should play fishing on my phone or sumthin'
And Ad's - thanks for being really sweet to me, really enjoy your companionship: When are we gonna watch Marley and Me? HEHE
Mr.Botak - thanks for the toast you made on the day you got drunk. hope that I get to meet your gf =)
Miss Mayyy Yan - hope that all goes well for you and don't overstress yourself during exams! And when are you coming backkk to visitttt
Mr. Hai - I'm happy for you ;) The pictures are sooo sweeeeeeetttttttttttttttt and she looks sweet too =))
Mr. Kung Yan - I don't know whuz goin'on back there but erm... can you help typing out chinese food names for Ad's dad's menu??? HEEHEE
AAAA 1.20am d...
And I want Adam "Gay" Lambert to win AI.... ^_^V
Ask Ads - he'll know.
I can work until as late as 9.30pm then end up watching movies and.... bed...
I've been designing Sweet Deli'ght's Menu..
Hehe just doing a mock but barely have time for that too - but don't worry, tho' the progress's a lil' SLLLOW... it's progressing!
And OMGGG HY ... your blog entry is so sweet lahhh...
HAHA And nice hair!
Wonder when am I gonna see Mr.Botak's gf.
Random updates:
1. Been havin' a great appetite only on food that I really really like.
2. Can't really get into a good sleep at night - I either have some kinda weird dream and wake up feeling tired or I can't really sleep at all
3. Been feeling really restless - and somewhat anxious for no reason
See, like right now it's 1.15am and I'm supposed to be asleep...
And I can't sleeeeep...
But I feel too tired to concentrate on the menu...
But yet I can't get INTO a 'sleep'..
maybe I should play fishing on my phone or sumthin'
And Ad's - thanks for being really sweet to me, really enjoy your companionship: When are we gonna watch Marley and Me? HEHE
Mr.Botak - thanks for the toast you made on the day you got drunk. hope that I get to meet your gf =)
Miss Mayyy Yan - hope that all goes well for you and don't overstress yourself during exams! And when are you coming backkk to visitttt
Mr. Hai - I'm happy for you ;) The pictures are sooo sweeeeeeetttttttttttttttt and she looks sweet too =))
Mr. Kung Yan - I don't know whuz goin'on back there but erm... can you help typing out chinese food names for Ad's dad's menu??? HEEHEE
AAAA 1.20am d...
And I want Adam "Gay" Lambert to win AI.... ^_^V
Monday, 13 April 2009
It's my turn!
Hi everyone,
How is everything? Congrats to HY! I am glad you quit smoking for her! Keep up the good work! I know is quite tough for a smoker to quit smoking! I know you can do it dude! I am having inter semester break now and catching up with all my assignments! SIGHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!! Damn you all going to have BBQ this coming Saturday. You guys are making me jealous! Please upload some nice photos from the BBQ alright? Lastly, i really hate MACHESTER UNITED!They have been lucky recetly! They do not deserved to won the previous 2 matches! "KIKO MARCHEDA" I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LIVERPOOL: YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A487hyjYQWw
Along life's road
There will be sunshine and rain
Roses and thorns, laughter and pain
And 'cross the miles
You will face mountains so steep
Deserts so long and valleys so deep
Sometimes the Journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
I want you to know
You will never walk alone
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone
never, no never
The path will wind
And you will find wonders and fears
Labors of love and a few falling tears
Across the years
There will be some twists and turns
Mistakes to make and lessons to learn
Sometimes the journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember wherever you may go
Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need
He will go the distance with you faithfully
How is everything? Congrats to HY! I am glad you quit smoking for her! Keep up the good work! I know is quite tough for a smoker to quit smoking! I know you can do it dude! I am having inter semester break now and catching up with all my assignments! SIGHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!! Damn you all going to have BBQ this coming Saturday. You guys are making me jealous! Please upload some nice photos from the BBQ alright? Lastly, i really hate MACHESTER UNITED!They have been lucky recetly! They do not deserved to won the previous 2 matches! "KIKO MARCHEDA" I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LIVERPOOL: YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A487hyjYQWw
Along life's road
There will be sunshine and rain
Roses and thorns, laughter and pain
And 'cross the miles
You will face mountains so steep
Deserts so long and valleys so deep
Sometimes the Journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
I want you to know
You will never walk alone
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way
And you may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is
And He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone
never, no never
The path will wind
And you will find wonders and fears
Labors of love and a few falling tears
Across the years
There will be some twists and turns
Mistakes to make and lessons to learn
Sometimes the journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember wherever you may go
Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need
He will go the distance with you faithfully
Sunday, 12 April 2009
My turn....
Grats Grats Grats to HY
lovely news my friend....guess wat?? same situation man...fell in love...seeing some 1
been together for 3 weeks, still new, still fresh...just wanted to share since HY has already "admitted"...=)
Hope that i can intro her to u guys soon...she's kinda shy...and she wanna take it slow...so yea..when the time is right....
well...had shisha with ads, marcus, his gf, and his bro, Mus and John, Carnea and Jason. catched up a alittle, planning a bbq this sat...so for those of u who are missing out, we'll post some pics...
and guys....blog more..! wat's going on???
is every 1 that bz??? hmmmm...
well...gotta go....
Botak Yan
lovely news my friend....guess wat?? same situation man...fell in love...seeing some 1
been together for 3 weeks, still new, still fresh...just wanted to share since HY has already "admitted"...=)
Hope that i can intro her to u guys soon...she's kinda shy...and she wanna take it slow...so yea..when the time is right....
well...had shisha with ads, marcus, his gf, and his bro, Mus and John, Carnea and Jason. catched up a alittle, planning a bbq this sat...so for those of u who are missing out, we'll post some pics...
and guys....blog more..! wat's going on???
is every 1 that bz??? hmmmm...
well...gotta go....
Botak Yan
Saturday, 11 April 2009
Me and Elaine
I'm not hiding. I'm not missing in action. I got a girl friend now and her name is Elaine. She is from China and i got to know her in NMIT. She is a nice and friendly person. She can be funny yet stubborn.
I really like her and i guess she does the same way. I was sick like 2 weeks ago and she took good care of me. I really appreciate it and this makes me love her more and more.
In a way i quit smoking because of her, she force me to do it. However, i was coughing like hell when i was sick, i also know that i have to do something to it. So, good news for you people, i got myself a girl friend and i have not been smoking for like more than 2 weeks.
This post is for you Elaine, not sure if you will read it but all i would say is that I love you and really appreciate that you gave me a chance and took good care of me. For all my friends, i have updated myself so no need to ask much now. Take care people, hope to update you guys more often.
HY
I really like her and i guess she does the same way. I was sick like 2 weeks ago and she took good care of me. I really appreciate it and this makes me love her more and more.
In a way i quit smoking because of her, she force me to do it. However, i was coughing like hell when i was sick, i also know that i have to do something to it. So, good news for you people, i got myself a girl friend and i have not been smoking for like more than 2 weeks.
This post is for you Elaine, not sure if you will read it but all i would say is that I love you and really appreciate that you gave me a chance and took good care of me. For all my friends, i have updated myself so no need to ask much now. Take care people, hope to update you guys more often.
HY
Monday, 6 April 2009
Because Of You by Ne-Yo
(In part)
I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it
Even if I did I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it
And I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction
I'm so strung out on you I can barely move
But I like it and it's all because of you
I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it
Even if I did I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it
And I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction
I'm so strung out on you I can barely move
But I like it and it's all because of you
Thursday, 2 April 2009
Daylight Saving Time is a nuisance
Flight departure from Edinburgh: 8.55am Sunday 29th March
Time on mobile says 7.15am
Me at 7.15 am : Hi, can I get a taxi to the airport?
Operator: Sure, what time will that be?
Me: 8.10am
Operator: 8.10am tomorrow?
Me: No 8.10am in a bit. Today.
Operator: It was 8.10am a few minutes ago.
Me: What?! But it is only 7.18am on my mobile! Oh no! DAYLIGHT SAVING! OH SHIT OH SHIT! Can I get a taxi now?!
Man, like I haven't been here long enough to get used to this. Twice a year this happens to almost everyone. Well, the clock moving backwards in autumn ensures that we are one hour earlier which means one hour of less sleep if we are unaware of the change in time. Over spring, once a year most transport companies benefit from us buying our fares twice. The media should alert us in advance.
MY
Time on mobile says 7.15am
Me at 7.15 am : Hi, can I get a taxi to the airport?
Operator: Sure, what time will that be?
Me: 8.10am
Operator: 8.10am tomorrow?
Me: No 8.10am in a bit. Today.
Operator: It was 8.10am a few minutes ago.
Me: What?! But it is only 7.18am on my mobile! Oh no! DAYLIGHT SAVING! OH SHIT OH SHIT! Can I get a taxi now?!
Man, like I haven't been here long enough to get used to this. Twice a year this happens to almost everyone. Well, the clock moving backwards in autumn ensures that we are one hour earlier which means one hour of less sleep if we are unaware of the change in time. Over spring, once a year most transport companies benefit from us buying our fares twice. The media should alert us in advance.
MY
Wednesday, 25 March 2009
Better late than never?
Last to wish you all but like Botak_yan said....
First to wish you all from my side of the world..it is only 10am of 25/03/09 and so the celebrations can still go on :)
Happy Birthday to Kung-yan!! Man, you are always age-ing and I will never ever be able to catch up with you! Hehe
Also, to zyan and adryan congrats with the milestone! Two years is a long time!! Hope the both of you will continue to grow old together!!
By the way, why is it "BADDY"?
On a personal note, I will be missing in action for a month! Will lead a normal life only after April 21st. That is when this killer paper will be over. Please pray that I pass?
MY
First to wish you all from my side of the world..it is only 10am of 25/03/09 and so the celebrations can still go on :)
Happy Birthday to Kung-yan!! Man, you are always age-ing and I will never ever be able to catch up with you! Hehe
Also, to zyan and adryan congrats with the milestone! Two years is a long time!! Hope the both of you will continue to grow old together!!
By the way, why is it "BADDY"?
On a personal note, I will be missing in action for a month! Will lead a normal life only after April 21st. That is when this killer paper will be over. Please pray that I pass?
MY
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
To U Guys
Yo Kung Yan...!
Happy bday man....guess Adr-Yan was the first in aussie to wish u..so i'll b the first in malaysia man..lol
and grats to Adr&Yan on their second year anni
so..to update u guys on the restaurant...construction has finally started..at long last..! but there is still heaps to do..so..will update ya soon...
and guys..! post more often..! is every 1 that bz??
Botak_Yan
Happy bday man....guess Adr-Yan was the first in aussie to wish u..so i'll b the first in malaysia man..lol
and grats to Adr&Yan on their second year anni
so..to update u guys on the restaurant...construction has finally started..at long last..! but there is still heaps to do..so..will update ya soon...
and guys..! post more often..! is every 1 that bz??
Botak_Yan
March 25
Happy Birthday to MR kenny YAP AKA kung-yan.
Best wishes for your birthday,etc,etc <--- u know the rest. (its always the same)
^___^ hahaha.
Btw, March 25th is also my 'BADDY' day.
Its the day me and yan got together.
On today, we have been together for 2 years now.
So HAPPY BADDY to you YAN!
looking forward to be home..
-Addy-
Best wishes for your birthday,etc,etc <--- u know the rest. (its always the same)
^___^ hahaha.
Btw, March 25th is also my 'BADDY' day.
Its the day me and yan got together.
On today, we have been together for 2 years now.
So HAPPY BADDY to you YAN!
looking forward to be home..
-Addy-
Friday, 20 March 2009
gang way..!
posting song lyrics??
MY TURN..!
Slipknot - Vermillion Part II
She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame,
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me.
I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.
Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad.
She is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.
But I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
A catch in my throat, choke,
Torn into pieces, I won't. No.
I don't want to be this but
I won't let this build up inside of me (won't let this build up inside of me) x4
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
MY TURN..!
Slipknot - Vermillion Part II
She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame,
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me.
I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.
Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad.
She is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.
But I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
A catch in my throat, choke,
Torn into pieces, I won't. No.
I don't want to be this but
I won't let this build up inside of me (won't let this build up inside of me) x4
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
Thursday, 19 March 2009
Only Love
2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
That's something only love can do
Drink, get drunk, sleep, wake up, drink, get drunk, sleep....Aching....Pain
HY
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
That's something only love can do
Drink, get drunk, sleep, wake up, drink, get drunk, sleep....Aching....Pain
HY
Goodbye
Like the poor farmer..
..who sows his seeds and prays for the best harvests
..who hopes that his crops would grow to feed those around him
..who never abandons his fields when a natural disaster strikes
Like me wearing the poor farmer's shoes..
..who experienced the best harvest ever
..who didn't want any of the crops
..who burned his land of fields
..who sows his seeds and prays for the best harvests
..who hopes that his crops would grow to feed those around him
..who never abandons his fields when a natural disaster strikes
Like me wearing the poor farmer's shoes..
..who experienced the best harvest ever
..who didn't want any of the crops
..who burned his land of fields
Monday, 16 March 2009
Not that bored this time....lol
No more bird of prey this time. Anyway just wonder how come everyone thought it was Kung Yan ?
HY is still in NZ. Still working in the Salmon factory. Really sick of salmon and mussels. Anyone is jealous about me ? LOl...
Bored here...Still cant find a job i want...No more surprises in my life...wat can i do? I talk to Kung Yan the other day and he persuade me to go to Melbourne and try my luck. My mom ask me to stay in NZ cuz now retrenchment are everywhere..sigh
My mom was funny...She call me and told me 2 good news and a bad news after seeing some fortune teller...The good news was my love life will blossom and i will manage to get a job in NZ...The bad news is that i will get into a really bad car accident that will cost my life..Especially on my July which is my birthday month...KNS...Guess i'll have to stop driving or drive less...
Dun really wanna think about it but when i force myself not to, it keep popping out...Anyway dun worry about me...I'll be alrite...Especially u Serena...
Botak Yan, i wan tong sui and i wan all the food ur mom cook...Can u DHL to me...=p
Good luck and hope the business will go well...U shud prove something this time botak...lol..
Take care everyone...Will try to update myself more often...
Jin Da Hai in the Hse
HY
HY is still in NZ. Still working in the Salmon factory. Really sick of salmon and mussels. Anyone is jealous about me ? LOl...
Bored here...Still cant find a job i want...No more surprises in my life...wat can i do? I talk to Kung Yan the other day and he persuade me to go to Melbourne and try my luck. My mom ask me to stay in NZ cuz now retrenchment are everywhere..sigh
My mom was funny...She call me and told me 2 good news and a bad news after seeing some fortune teller...The good news was my love life will blossom and i will manage to get a job in NZ...The bad news is that i will get into a really bad car accident that will cost my life..Especially on my July which is my birthday month...KNS...Guess i'll have to stop driving or drive less...
Dun really wanna think about it but when i force myself not to, it keep popping out...Anyway dun worry about me...I'll be alrite...Especially u Serena...
Botak Yan, i wan tong sui and i wan all the food ur mom cook...Can u DHL to me...=p
Good luck and hope the business will go well...U shud prove something this time botak...lol..
Take care everyone...Will try to update myself more often...
Jin Da Hai in the Hse
HY
Finally..!
It's now 4.06am local time. I'm dead tired. But happy. Cuz finally..!! the renovation plans are done.!!! We can finally move forward. My heart is seriously thumping. Wat if? Wat if no one likes the design? Or the color schemes? aiks.Here are some of the design inspirations i got off the net.
Well...thnx to Z-Yan, Adr-Yan, and every 1....for their contributions...
LET'S MAKE ThIS WORK...!
CHARGE...!
ZzzZZZzzzzzzz...............................................
Botak_Yan falls asleep.....
Well...thnx to Z-Yan, Adr-Yan, and every 1....for their contributions...
LET'S MAKE ThIS WORK...!
CHARGE...!
ZzzZZZzzzzzzz...............................................
Botak_Yan falls asleep.....
Sunday, 15 March 2009
Eighteen
To my brother of 18!
It is not legal for you to:
1)Smoke
2)Drink
3)Club
4)Gamble
5)Womanize
6)Watch porn
7)Go to a strip club
However you are old enough to:
1)Pay bills
2)Get arrested
4)Face all the same legal responsibilities as an adult
5)Apply for a credit card and give it to me to spend
6)Drive only under supervision
7)Work and give me money
Hahaha who said turning 18 was fun?!
LOL
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!
Mei-yan
It is not legal for you to:
1)Smoke
2)Drink
3)Club
4)Gamble
5)Womanize
6)Watch porn
7)Go to a strip club
However you are old enough to:
1)Pay bills
2)Get arrested
4)Face all the same legal responsibilities as an adult
5)Apply for a credit card and give it to me to spend
6)Drive only under supervision
7)Work and give me money
Hahaha who said turning 18 was fun?!
LOL
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!
Mei-yan
New Addition..!
Greetings....to all my fellow Yan's
i'm the newest...and the oldest...and the wisest....yan of all...(i think so)
Botak Yan here
so...pretty much bz with the restaurant....lot's of things to prepare...
and it's nice that u guys have c8ted a blog so that we can know wat's going on in each other's lives....keep it up..and keep posting...
As for Mei Yan's recent post...thnx hon....but seriously...dont remember half of it...lol
guess u guys have to refresh my memory
see u guys soon
Botak Yan
i'm the newest...and the oldest...and the wisest....yan of all...(i think so)
Botak Yan here
so...pretty much bz with the restaurant....lot's of things to prepare...
and it's nice that u guys have c8ted a blog so that we can know wat's going on in each other's lives....keep it up..and keep posting...
As for Mei Yan's recent post...thnx hon....but seriously...dont remember half of it...lol
guess u guys have to refresh my memory
see u guys soon
Botak Yan
The Exception
This guy played quite a big role in my life for as long as I remember. Heck, we even used to live together when granny kicked my family out of the house for reasons I am not sure of.
Not having any older siblings, I had my fair share of bullying from him. Thanks man, you scarred me for life! Here's a few examples. I remember running away from him and his brother while they shoot me with small, thick, folded paper using rubber bands. I was in kindergarten when he conned me into giving him my 50 cents (back then it was worth alot) so that he could buy us junk food. He bought me one Mammee (5 cents back then) and spent the rest on himself. I was too afraid to challenge him then.
However, he was the big brother I looked up to when I was younger. He even brought me out of my cartoon world by showing me my first MTV video! It was Everybody by Backstreet Boys. I thought it was the coolest thing ever back then. He stopped me from listening to nursery songs on cassette by introducing me to Hitz FM then. I felt so grown up then. Heh
Even when he left school and went to college he was always around. Even though we were younger than him he never treated us differently. He would always lepak with us and was our first very own driver who would entertained us. He drove lengths, complained sometimes but he drove the miles regardless!
He was the big brother who didn't mind getting his hands dirty in our mess. He always lends a hand without hesitating, provides brotherly advice and still loves us for who we are.
How could we go through this phase of life without him?
And so, here is a warm welcome to the one and only - Botak-yan! Welcome to this blog!
From,
Mei-yan and the whole gang
Not having any older siblings, I had my fair share of bullying from him. Thanks man, you scarred me for life! Here's a few examples. I remember running away from him and his brother while they shoot me with small, thick, folded paper using rubber bands. I was in kindergarten when he conned me into giving him my 50 cents (back then it was worth alot) so that he could buy us junk food. He bought me one Mammee (5 cents back then) and spent the rest on himself. I was too afraid to challenge him then.
However, he was the big brother I looked up to when I was younger. He even brought me out of my cartoon world by showing me my first MTV video! It was Everybody by Backstreet Boys. I thought it was the coolest thing ever back then. He stopped me from listening to nursery songs on cassette by introducing me to Hitz FM then. I felt so grown up then. Heh
Even when he left school and went to college he was always around. Even though we were younger than him he never treated us differently. He would always lepak with us and was our first very own driver who would entertained us. He drove lengths, complained sometimes but he drove the miles regardless!
He was the big brother who didn't mind getting his hands dirty in our mess. He always lends a hand without hesitating, provides brotherly advice and still loves us for who we are.
How could we go through this phase of life without him?
And so, here is a warm welcome to the one and only - Botak-yan! Welcome to this blog!
From,
Mei-yan and the whole gang
Friday, 13 March 2009
Lucky
Flight was scheduled at 8.15am from Melb to Sydney.
Woke up at 5am.
Reach airport 6.30am
Check in.
Lady at counter said 'Sorry Sir, you flight has been cancelled.'
-______-
At that moment of time, u feel like strangling the toooooooooot and wonder why I have so much expectations for a low budget airline..
Nonetherless,
'But i'll put you in the 7.15am flight to sydney!'
Here's your boarding pass, please proceed to gate 12 at 6.45am.
I looked at my watch, 6.40am after check in.
Best airport experience ever...
No wait, no hassle, no worries.
Woke up at 5am.
Reach airport 6.30am
Check in.
Lady at counter said 'Sorry Sir, you flight has been cancelled.'
-______-
At that moment of time, u feel like strangling the toooooooooot and wonder why I have so much expectations for a low budget airline..
Nonetherless,
'But i'll put you in the 7.15am flight to sydney!'
Here's your boarding pass, please proceed to gate 12 at 6.45am.
I looked at my watch, 6.40am after check in.
Best airport experience ever...
No wait, no hassle, no worries.
Impressive Mei Yan
Hey guys,
First of all i would like to thanks Mei Yan for created this wonderful place for all of us and also i would like to thanks everyone will contribute their time and effort in this very special blog. Unlike last time, it is really hard to have a chance to being together and shisha or doing whatever we like to do such as dota, and also playing some silly games or silly talk. Also, ads congratulation to you! 28th March, a very special day to you and starting a new chapter in your life. By the way, i am not the person who post such boring "BIRD OF PREY" in this blog, i bet is HAI YAN!
Finally, ADS i know you have been waiting for the NZ pics, like i said, i would pass it to you when you are back from SDYNEY! By the way, i will be in Brisbane from 18th March - 22nd March, so i hope i will have more pictures to contribute to this blog.
Cheers guys!
First of all i would like to thanks Mei Yan for created this wonderful place for all of us and also i would like to thanks everyone will contribute their time and effort in this very special blog. Unlike last time, it is really hard to have a chance to being together and shisha or doing whatever we like to do such as dota, and also playing some silly games or silly talk. Also, ads congratulation to you! 28th March, a very special day to you and starting a new chapter in your life. By the way, i am not the person who post such boring "BIRD OF PREY" in this blog, i bet is HAI YAN!
Finally, ADS i know you have been waiting for the NZ pics, like i said, i would pass it to you when you are back from SDYNEY! By the way, i will be in Brisbane from 18th March - 22nd March, so i hope i will have more pictures to contribute to this blog.
Cheers guys!
Thursday, 12 March 2009
Design Requires the Heart
I've recently created a web folio on my works.
What d'you think?
You may click the icon above or alternatively visit: yangirl.blogspot.com
It's still under construction really - haven't uploaded everything yet.
But it's getting there ;p
One word per entry from Adr-Yan's dictionary:
kutkutkutkutkut... (phonetics) Sound of our laughter
Created by Z Yan from the modification of Adr-Yan's "kikukukikuku"
Frequently used by both of us
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
Daytime Zombie
I think there is something wrong with me. Does anyone else suffer excessive daytime sleepiness too? Or is it just me? I constantly find myself battling to keep my eyes open. It is not even funny anymore.
Today, I spent the whole of my precious study day* trying to study** and after like what 5 hours? I find myself staring at the same bloody page reading (chanting) the same bloody sentences over and over again.
I could have used the 5 hours to watch South Park or something. Or go out and buy the Skype phone that is on sale! Something that could have been more productive!
However, the thought of doing anything other than studying makes me feel guilty all the time as exams are just around the corner. Oh, why did I do this to myself?
* I get 1 day off a week to study for this paper I am doing in April.
** I have 7 more papers to do before I qualify.
I might not even want to qualify anymore. This job is so overrated.
Off to progress onto the next page now.
Mei-yan
Today, I spent the whole of my precious study day* trying to study** and after like what 5 hours? I find myself staring at the same bloody page reading (chanting) the same bloody sentences over and over again.
I could have used the 5 hours to watch South Park or something. Or go out and buy the Skype phone that is on sale! Something that could have been more productive!
However, the thought of doing anything other than studying makes me feel guilty all the time as exams are just around the corner. Oh, why did I do this to myself?
* I get 1 day off a week to study for this paper I am doing in April.
** I have 7 more papers to do before I qualify.
I might not even want to qualify anymore. This job is so overrated.
Off to progress onto the next page now.
Mei-yan
Paying it Forward
Girls can be really funny creatures.
I like to buy really nice presents and wrap them up really nicely and give them away to people that I care because I secretly hope that they would do the same to me.
My mum likes to buy nice food and ask me to eat them even if I don't wanna because she secretly desires to eat them but is afraid of the health consequences.
I figure many people enjoy doing things to others that they would like to receive for themselves.
Like how my grandma cook lovely meals for others - I'm sure that she would love it if someone does the same for her.
And how my mother cares for me and my dad so much on our health issues - I'm sure she would love it if someone cares as much on her health.
And how my dad love to give away expensive liquor - I'm sure he would feel honoured to receive a present like that but I on the other hand secretly wish that I'm the only one who knows such a secret so that he doesn't drink so much.
And well, nowadays I've been making lots of calls to Melbourne just to chat and update with someone I miss.
And likewise, it would feel great if it's the other way round.
Many humans tend to love to give what they would love to receive.
Well, looking at the bright side, at least they did so because they care - otherwise they would be giving away what's unwanted and disliked.
Dah.
z yan.
One word per entry from Adr-Yan's dictionary:
babisetan (noun): Used to casually condemn a situation or a person
Example: "BABISETAN why you go and do something like that?"
Word created by Yan.
Commonly used by Yan.
I like to buy really nice presents and wrap them up really nicely and give them away to people that I care because I secretly hope that they would do the same to me.
My mum likes to buy nice food and ask me to eat them even if I don't wanna because she secretly desires to eat them but is afraid of the health consequences.
I figure many people enjoy doing things to others that they would like to receive for themselves.
Like how my grandma cook lovely meals for others - I'm sure that she would love it if someone does the same for her.
And how my mother cares for me and my dad so much on our health issues - I'm sure she would love it if someone cares as much on her health.
And how my dad love to give away expensive liquor - I'm sure he would feel honoured to receive a present like that but I on the other hand secretly wish that I'm the only one who knows such a secret so that he doesn't drink so much.
And well, nowadays I've been making lots of calls to Melbourne just to chat and update with someone I miss.
And likewise, it would feel great if it's the other way round.
Many humans tend to love to give what they would love to receive.
Well, looking at the bright side, at least they did so because they care - otherwise they would be giving away what's unwanted and disliked.
Dah.
z yan.
One word per entry from Adr-Yan's dictionary:
babisetan (noun): Used to casually condemn a situation or a person
Example: "BABISETAN why you go and do something like that?"
Word created by Yan.
Commonly used by Yan.
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
-Random
Bird of prey..what? Sigh, Kenny Yap HAHAH!
Anyway...
Tho' I already wished you, I still wanna wish Miss Cute-face Eva Girl a happy *b'lated* birthday! Stay cute and (try to be) angelic please! heheh!
Oh and I already got Mr. Ads a lil'sumthin for HIS special day - but sadly I'm just gonna show you your very gay ribbon of your present with a very gay butterfly on top. Sorry but as long as I'm your girlfriend, please do expect lots of pink and gay girlie stuffs from me (like how you're using my pink and lovely bed sheets with my fluffy and pink dufin sitting on it *kutkut). But please keep in mind that despite the girlie aura I may be feeding you - it's simply because they come from me to REMIND you of me - not to transform you into an Adam Lambert (tho' he's hot). And please be reminded that my special day is not very far away either! *hint hint to non-Adryans hahahah!
And back to Miss Eva - the lil'gift with the happy birthday ribbon is all yours... soon... I hope *winks.
For those who are wondering (for those who ain't, do skip this), I've been busy working in this pathetically tiny lil'ad agency in Mid Valley City *right opposite Megamall actually - and in this shithole, I've been working on FREE complimentary lifestyle magazines targeted towards Malaysian working people. Not a bad job really - just that the pay is super shitty and my boss is superbly annoying, fat, piggish and smelly (he better not be reading this, hahah!). Okay, MAYBE he is not THAT bad to be badmouthed like that, but I must say that he is indeed pretty selfish, egoistic and arrogant - not much of a giver and expects to receive alot... just like many other shitty bosses in Malaysia. But oh well, at least he has a little soft spot for pretty girls because he practically hires staff based on looks and how she can be an eye-candy... all you need to do is sweet talk him out in the job interview and he'll give in - provided if you ask for a pretty LOW expected salary with the enthusiasm to play an all-in-one role in the company. So perhaps the only reason that I'm proud to work in this company is that I'm definitely not bad-looking to be chosen to work here - and that I've been gaining lots of exposure from his clients (definitely not from him) but at least working here gives me the opportunity to gain such exposures and also gives me space to experiment a lil' in terms of design and creative aspects. AND, considering the economy today and the ridiculous 2-months-notice from my bloody job appointment letter, I guess I'll probably sit in for awhile before I happily move on to somewhere else with much higher pay and a chance to work under people who are much more professional in my faculty.
But there's a good and bad thing working near Megamall - the good side is that I get all these pamperish services such as spas, salons and a gym filled with super leng-zais (don't worry Ads, they're all gay). And the downside? Well I can't save MUCH (but I do save a LIL' teehee!) working near this shopping place because there's always sales and promotions and .... they can be really tempting (Tho' I'm tempted, at least I didn't buy 'em all kay?)!!!
So Mr.Addy, less than a month and... I'll be expecting (from) you. ^___^
Hugs,
z yan
One word per entry from Adr-Yan's dictionary:
Bonggol (noun):
To describe a smart-ass or someone who is being a dick.
Example: "Don't be such a bonggol lah you!"
Word created by Yan.
Commonly used by both Adrian and Yan.
Anyway...
Tho' I already wished you, I still wanna wish Miss Cute-face Eva Girl a happy *b'lated* birthday! Stay cute and (try to be) angelic please! heheh!
Oh and I already got Mr. Ads a lil'sumthin for HIS special day - but sadly I'm just gonna show you your very gay ribbon of your present with a very gay butterfly on top. Sorry but as long as I'm your girlfriend, please do expect lots of pink and gay girlie stuffs from me (like how you're using my pink and lovely bed sheets with my fluffy and pink dufin sitting on it *kutkut). But please keep in mind that despite the girlie aura I may be feeding you - it's simply because they come from me to REMIND you of me - not to transform you into an Adam Lambert (tho' he's hot). And please be reminded that my special day is not very far away either! *hint hint to non-Adryans hahahah!
And back to Miss Eva - the lil'gift with the happy birthday ribbon is all yours... soon... I hope *winks.
For those who are wondering (for those who ain't, do skip this), I've been busy working in this pathetically tiny lil'ad agency in Mid Valley City *right opposite Megamall actually - and in this shithole, I've been working on FREE complimentary lifestyle magazines targeted towards Malaysian working people. Not a bad job really - just that the pay is super shitty and my boss is superbly annoying, fat, piggish and smelly (he better not be reading this, hahah!). Okay, MAYBE he is not THAT bad to be badmouthed like that, but I must say that he is indeed pretty selfish, egoistic and arrogant - not much of a giver and expects to receive alot... just like many other shitty bosses in Malaysia. But oh well, at least he has a little soft spot for pretty girls because he practically hires staff based on looks and how she can be an eye-candy... all you need to do is sweet talk him out in the job interview and he'll give in - provided if you ask for a pretty LOW expected salary with the enthusiasm to play an all-in-one role in the company. So perhaps the only reason that I'm proud to work in this company is that I'm definitely not bad-looking to be chosen to work here - and that I've been gaining lots of exposure from his clients (definitely not from him) but at least working here gives me the opportunity to gain such exposures and also gives me space to experiment a lil' in terms of design and creative aspects. AND, considering the economy today and the ridiculous 2-months-notice from my bloody job appointment letter, I guess I'll probably sit in for awhile before I happily move on to somewhere else with much higher pay and a chance to work under people who are much more professional in my faculty.
But there's a good and bad thing working near Megamall - the good side is that I get all these pamperish services such as spas, salons and a gym filled with super leng-zais (don't worry Ads, they're all gay). And the downside? Well I can't save MUCH (but I do save a LIL' teehee!) working near this shopping place because there's always sales and promotions and .... they can be really tempting (Tho' I'm tempted, at least I didn't buy 'em all kay?)!!!
So Mr.Addy, less than a month and... I'll be expecting (from) you. ^___^
Hugs,
z yan
One word per entry from Adr-Yan's dictionary:
Bonggol (noun):
To describe a smart-ass or someone who is being a dick.
Example: "Don't be such a bonggol lah you!"
Word created by Yan.
Commonly used by both Adrian and Yan.
Journey to the next Phase
Hi all,
First and foremost, it would like to say thanks to Mei Yan for all the time and effort she has put onto this new e-hangout spot. I do realise it would be very difficult for all of us to sit down on a square plsatic table with a drink in front and shishas' at the side again. But hopefully the time should still come in the future ahead. So i guess this would only be the appropriate hangout place.
OKOK enough of all the soft part...
Just want to let y'all know that I am having my convo on March 28th... YES.. I'm grauduating.. FINALLY.. and i'll be heading back to Malaysia and looking forward to my new life.. a new phase.. 'the work force'.. eeeewwww..
Also for those who are unaware, the CHOWs are opening a cafe at ss15.. Please come along and support us and try my mum's home cook delicacies.. =D .. I'll probably be there at the beginning to help out around.
So what have I been up to?
I went to NZ with my kung-yan and his gf.. We visited our hai yan friend.. It was really good.. But sadly kenny still yet to post any pics AND havent come to my house to give me 700+ worth of pics despite telling him numerous times...
I still think there are many of us friends who would like to have a part in this blog but cannot come up with a YAN in their name.. Feel free to share cause we were all brought up to share with one another which what made us so special and still yet so distant, but very close. We won't treat you as one of the YANs but prob just an outcast.. wahahaha...
Anyways, i hope you guys would contribute to this blog if not:
1. Mei Yan will be annoyed for 'spending' time creating this blog and with no response
2. and I and perhaps on behalf of every other friend would like to know what's going on in each other's life.
Cheers for now.
ADR-YAN
BTW i bet the bird of prey MUST BE KENNY.. similarities to his blog in a way.
First and foremost, it would like to say thanks to Mei Yan for all the time and effort she has put onto this new e-hangout spot. I do realise it would be very difficult for all of us to sit down on a square plsatic table with a drink in front and shishas' at the side again. But hopefully the time should still come in the future ahead. So i guess this would only be the appropriate hangout place.
OKOK enough of all the soft part...
Just want to let y'all know that I am having my convo on March 28th... YES.. I'm grauduating.. FINALLY.. and i'll be heading back to Malaysia and looking forward to my new life.. a new phase.. 'the work force'.. eeeewwww..
Also for those who are unaware, the CHOWs are opening a cafe at ss15.. Please come along and support us and try my mum's home cook delicacies.. =D .. I'll probably be there at the beginning to help out around.
So what have I been up to?
I went to NZ with my kung-yan and his gf.. We visited our hai yan friend.. It was really good.. But sadly kenny still yet to post any pics AND havent come to my house to give me 700+ worth of pics despite telling him numerous times...
I still think there are many of us friends who would like to have a part in this blog but cannot come up with a YAN in their name.. Feel free to share cause we were all brought up to share with one another which what made us so special and still yet so distant, but very close. We won't treat you as one of the YANs but prob just an outcast.. wahahaha...
Anyways, i hope you guys would contribute to this blog if not:
1. Mei Yan will be annoyed for 'spending' time creating this blog and with no response
2. and I and perhaps on behalf of every other friend would like to know what's going on in each other's life.
Cheers for now.
ADR-YAN
BTW i bet the bird of prey MUST BE KENNY.. similarities to his blog in a way.
Monday, 9 March 2009
Bird of Prey
Bird of Prey, Bird of Prey, Flying high, Flying high....
In the sky.....A plane pass by.....
In the sky.....A plane pass by.....
Sunday, 8 March 2009
The Reason
The dying urge to know what is going through my friend's lives has led to the creation of this blog. It happened on the eve of Chinese New Year 2009 when a group of us concurrently came online without giving prior notice to each other (oh, such a strong bond we have!) and a reunion which was uncalled for led to the exchanging of the many tales we had since the last time we kept in touch.
One particular story was the misfortune of one of us at the casino (inside joke) which made us (me) realise how little we knew about each other and thus, a suggestion was made to create a blog so that we could all share our invaluable experiences no matter where we were dotted around the world.
This blog is made for
Adr-yan
Hai-yan
Keng-yan if he is ever ‘geng’ or powerful otherwise he should stick to Kung-yan
Mei-yan
Zzz-yan
and any of our other close friends who think they are worthy of joining us and can creatively insert ‘yan’ in their name can come and audition to be the next Yan Gang member.
In this blog, we are all ears to all Yan members who wish to rant, bitch, blab, gossip, and whine or update the rest of the gang with the highs and lows of their lives. Just like how we all did when we were sitting around mamak stalls or when we were only a cheap phone call away back then.
On another note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Adr-yan’s sister! Can’t believe she is all grown up now. Oh, how time flies and how I miss being that young when we were all care-free then!
Signing off,
Mei-yan
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